Interconnected

This world is smaller than it seems as the little things piece up to from a large picture.
Picture thousands of strings interlocking, entwining, you can never seem to guess.
News spreads like wild fire, you find out the strings are coated with a layer of wax.
Simple words like stones hitting against eachother, a spark can grow to be a flame.
Watch yourself light up and cause a sensation, see the picture break down
and finally understand.

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You say you do, then come hold tight
You say you want, then come get quick
If you do but do not want, then dissapear
If you do but cannot want, then that is fear
If you do and also want, then please be brave
I could, I may, I may not, Life's a gamble anyways...

Who is my Fixest Fixxed?

School was very normal and un-uplifting yesterday, and oh my holy god I am blogging almost everyday as though this is my daily public journal or something....

is this a problem?

Chemistry practical was ay-okay! And after that, I spent my 1-2pm with Mushy and Elena in the library.

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MamaG and PapaG went to miri while Dada stayed at home with Shah, so I went for a visit too, after school! ^^ its nice to always have shah around! :]

Shah and I sang songs outloud while Dada was playing with the pinano, and there we're many suspensful crazy moments! I recorded some! haha!

(8) oceans apart... (8)

PapaG and MamaG will know I'll stay there till late night, they bought 2 of everything from miri coz Jax for sure havent gone home! HAHA

Amazing, I wanted McDonalds that day! :D

Pren Pries Poebaaa!

Full of tears! Insecurities! Confessions!!!! Funness! Story Sharing!
Singing with Shahness "Baby youre all that I want! (8)"
[ive never heard my voice with instrumentals before, i like the feeling of singing to dada's pinano! I guess my voice aint' so horrible after all...]

Hearing Dada talk to Manny on the phone was sooo funny!! I asked her to ask Manny

" whats the stupidest thing you can say about a paper clip! "

Dada: " make me laugh!"
and he was on speaker at that moment, without knowing the whole time I was in the house,

" UHH...you can use it to clip your butthole? ".

HAHAAHAHA. Dada was laughing like crazy and I had to cover my mouth with a pillow.
He asked "Well at least you're laughing! why so random!?"
Its like he didnt know what to say, so he'd radther say something horny sounding instead! haha

---- You dont wanna be my britney? (8) Imma slaaveee for you! ----

Im just in the background trying to retain my laughter like sheeet!!! Seriously man...

It was a nice day overall~

You know what's the grossest thing of all?
I fell dead on my bed right after I came home, didnt bathe at all... X)

WHAT! AS IF YOU GUYS NEVER SKIPPED BATHING!?

PSH! SMELL MY SMELLY PEETS!

Happy Days So Far

This month has been especially happy lor! Even Nisa And Mushy has been happy. And I love it when people around me are happy! But havent been spending time with Han and Lena coz somehow I get swiped in the moments of busyness. Liki is still crazy and teeqx is so teeqyness! Everything is going so swell right now because everyone's happy and everyone's enjoying their time. I like that! it makes me happy! ^^

I mean not only that, but studying can be quite uplifting too, like this 3 weeks are gonna be such happy days as I set up my time to study for the exams that I am currently having. And Im really happy that if I ever dont know how to do math, then I'll have my friends there with me to guide me! ^^ I enjoy martha's class now, I dont know! I just think I've gone insane and nuts! and I really cling on to the words of life Ms.Breda gives... thats nice.

Is it me, or did specific people suddenly grew and change? Some very obvious, some quite subtle, some are just taking a few baby steps! Some have a new found respect for something? Believed in something new? I dont know, I hope all those people are doing good right now ;] It seems like they are, and that makes me happy too!

Happy Days

Eventhough our relationship wasnt long...yeah. Because you've always been there when I needed you, you will never leave me, never judge me, never in anyway talk about the bad things... You listen, and you understand, and you keep my secrets in the cover. And So, even when things didnt work out between us, I will always, admire you and Im glad that we can still be friends...

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PAUL

We Love Paul the Pole
haha!
Happy Saturday

WE LOVE PAUL! yes yes we do!
Me and Rikki took Teeqx out of the library and introduced her to Paul.
And yeah, everyone loves Paul just the way he is.
Now especially Rikki as a thing for Paul or something, look at her face?

Either Rikki was telling Paul a secret or she was making out with him
*jealous*
The spontaneous moments where we somehow have free lessons at the same time and randomly hang out! XD

hehehe! omg! I have much fun with Paul loving People~

Crazy Monday

Liki wussnt with us the next day when we texted her, So me and Teeqx had pre-lunch lunch with Paul. But we were still hungry so we walked to Gdg! It's like Teeqx just sed " I WANT BANANA PIE!" haha and wanted to txt Liki up but she had classes enyways~ so yeah...

padapap pa pa~ walking down here was fun^^

Mannn, I cant believe under that tudong is a hot hot girl!
I love teeqypoo!
Yes it's still crazy monday

Lena is my crazy cina
(8)
*woot*

Elenaaaa LIM!

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Actually I dont even talk to yusuf
...but yeah~ my phone was right in his face

Hung out with Mushy and Teeqx in the library after lunch.

Mushy looks like he's in jail and getting punished =/
keeps avoiding cameya.

Haha i cant believe Mushy and Teeqx talk till they were absent in class when I went home, when they dont even know eachother! aaaa! Liki and Mushy sees Teeqx at school all the time now and I dont even get to pass by her or nething, how come I dont see Teeqx around unless I specifically want to find my pyen? I just realized I went to my pyens and go "HEY HEY! THIS IS TEEX! TEEX THIS IS _______" ... hahahha XD

Under da hood [lol]
Tired and full of crap on my face

-Tuesday was Happy Bio practical-

-Happy Wednesday-

Brought Mushy to MOE along with me after school
HAha someone's not camera shy nemore!

Now you all know I love potatoes, mmm mmm..
yes, Jax loves potatoes,
Nisa loves custard, yup yuppy,
Mushy eats stuff in big crazy egyptian sized bites
HAHA

Nisa came afterwards~ and after the talk we went to the MOE kanteen~

Okay like i dont care how I look in pictures anymore!
*accepting fact that I look ugly+fat in school and jalan pics*

Otago Talk... Lets all go to New Zealand. =]

Isnt she the coolest crazy grandma ever?

haha I told her that she could do it sitting down too and adjusted the handles so she could try both versions! My granma cooler than yours! she knows the rockyou sign yaw!
[when u see the ugly tiled floor, you so know, i always hang in my ex-balcony alot]

My compulsive purchasing of pretty bottles! remember? Sooo I was attracted to this Nike thermos flask! the next thing you know, I poured cold water into it, and it was condensing like crazy! And I just left the bottle in the Lecture Theartre while I was having my 2 hour biology practical, and then IT JUST BECAME UN-COLD! WTF? So fakeeeee! X( and heavy! then It doesnt even work *hrmph* its already dented =/ and it's just the second day..... oh well its four bux only, resonable price for a FAKE thermos.

OKay time to study, chemistry practicals are up, and I need to do some math as well.


Uber Funny.

What The Beach Says About You

You like people, but you're careful about who you get close to. Friendship is important to you... so important that you aren't just friends with anyone.

You have cold feet when it comes to love. You have a lot of uncertainty until you convince yourself to dive right in.

You are deeply passionate about several things in your life. You're not passionate about much... and the few passions you have are truly obsessions.

Your sense of humor is goofy and silly. You are good at making almost anyone laugh.

Cant stop playing with Blogthings.com

Rainbow

Just Like Rainbow

Yet to be mastered

Mr.Evil, The Robot

Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothings sure in this world, no no
Breaking down, breaking in
Never knowing what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all, no no
-rainbow...

What does JaQy Mean?
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.
You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What does yours mean?


What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

[ uhhhh... okeyyyy right...]

Get Out Of Thoughts...

The mind is so condensed with thoughts,
Caught up in non-moments, unaware,
Time takes you away when you sleep,
Realize it's all a dream, wake up,
Become concious. Become alert.
Focus, Be in moment.
Drift away, Forget
Cycle repeats.

That is me soon not to be
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Stories

Another day has pass,
and new stories come my way,
one story goes out...

Things unveil, ever so gently,
Like silk gently sliding off the glass case,
Let me see, what's inside of you.

The lion sleeps, and waits for time.
The sheep whispered, i never knew.
The boy shall grow, I trust.

Everyone has a story to tell... so what's yours?
I'm ever so curious, though, I should concentrate...
Wait, let me study first...


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You caught my attention... talk...

Blue Days ahead

Oh blue days ahead? what shall I do with you?

Oh so vulnerable I feel, I wanna run away...

Oh how silly it must be, How could this be?

Oh blue days ahead? What shall I do with you?

As words come out of me, would things change?

Would I regret? Would you feel pain?

Oh blue days ahead? I will miss you so...

What shall I do with you?

The Simple Things

Things have been going well lately, new levels reached, it feels like harvest moon where those chapters slowly open up once you've made a choice to walk the path you choose. Did i choose the right one? Opening myself up to more insights on your complications?

-sidetracked-

All these commotions dont make me flustered, but I feel like keeping myself away from the blue, as it happens more and more. I was drawn slightly towards the colour blue at one point, but now it's as if its everyone's big thing, talking about the colour blue, makes me not want the colour blue. So I keep in silence, the colour blue, the more they talk the more I think, theres nothing special about the colour blue. Then again, it's not like it's the main thing at all though, the words of colour blue just revolves around me, and it's getting really stale...

-back to story-

Excess information is exciting, but it concentrates in your mind and makes you lose sight of the simple things sometimes. So, though I dont like excess excess information. I like the way I see things in life, and I love being the way that I am, Happy. There's nothing wrong with that you know?

Why does everyone keep saying its hard to be simple, that at you can't be sinscere all the time? and everybody is just two faced, like what lena and han said. Like what MissBreda said to be more distrustful of people when you get out of the country because brunei is so safe and shielded. I still believe, call me naive, that everyone is nice someway. =/ i know they are evil people out there and all that, but... I dont know what to say.

I dont wanna be blur, but I dont wanna view life in such a complicated way in which you get ruled by your thoughts, fill yourself up with suspicions and get all paranoid and worried of what others might think about you.

Lena made sense, what if i didnt like my boss in the real world? and I still have to be two faced and smile.

I guess in someways like how i think about Martha is two-faced, but i just dont understand how some people can do it in a bitchy way lor. Martha is a teacher, and Im already learning to like her and appreciate her as a student to a teacher. So yeah... im actually doing ok in Martha's class eventhough I still give in to my sleepyness.

Life is simple, why do people have to make it so complicated =/ with all these networks and invisible lines that link us up all together and I dont know what's going on, I dont bother knowing what's going on.


And yes, I do believe that people have good sides, eventhough they seem mean on the outside. Do you believe you are loving? dont you? I do in you, so why cant you? ... I bet you just dont know how to =)

But sometimes things like these have to be learnt the hard way, because all of you are just too stubborn to see what I see, feel what I feel... So I leave you here in the shadow, I'll be here in the sun, come with me when you're ready. Because I cant help you walk this path.

Then I catch myself, Am i thinking too much again?

*stops and breathes*

Life is simple if you wish it be. Life is happy if you wish it be. Life is all that you can have if you wish it be.
Sinscerely, truthfully, gladly...

So yeah =) I have my emo days too, but still...

I dont understand why everybody makes it seem so hard ... ... ...

I love...

The simple things =)

15 things

State 15 weird things/habits/little facts about yourself and tag your friends. No tag backs!


Kakak tagged me...

1. I whine to my self and shout "aaaaaaa" in a whiney way sometimes when I am frustrated and no one's around me.

2. Sometimes when I yawn, one of my eye will close up like as if it's nerves are interconnected!

3. I dance dance alone in my living room in the middle of the night with my vanilla when I feel like it, with heavy eyeliner and short shorts. Shhh.... Jaqy;s disco nites.

4. I am close to the people who give me space and annoyed and freaked out by clingy people! XD

5. addicted to water bottles of different sizes, tempted to buy water bottles but end up not using them! coz my mind set goes pretty bottle=would drink more water=more healthy

6. sometimes when im thinking i look dumb/retarded/sad T.T"

7. I snored in biology class somehow and that really freaked me out! now i try my best to sleep with my mouth closed!

8. I love being active so much I can go on sweating and cooling off repeatedly for a max of 4 hours.

9. I could be online for more than 6 hours and not realize it.

10. my pinky will always be shorter than anybody's pinky! XD peesh pingers!

11. I scratch my top up cards with my nail, my thumb's nail! dada sez it's gross, but hey! its convenient whutt!

12. I have a happy tooth! X)

13. I like to play around with hororscopes! XD

14. When Im hungry, everyone has to put up with my crankyness and whineyness until they stuff food in my mouth and make me happy again. =D

15. I have my periods without warning signs! HAHA??


I TAG:
JASON HANNAH ELENA WAFIY ZARIFAH

yes yes! do the tag loserrrss! i know you guys read my blog!

Becoming the girl...

Very happy to be the girl that I finally want to be, which is me! ^^ haha well that's about it basically.
I love loving sports, I love taking every oppurtunity to do sports and not let anything hold me back from doing what I wanna do! I love loving life and love loving my friends! aaa! I love everything about my life! I love love love much!

It's a circle! meaning to say, complete =) it's complete!




Question: What type of guys do you like Jaqy? Who do you like?

well, thats for me to know, and for you to find out now, isnt it? =)

Thursday Nite Math

Tired from Chemistry, the day is kinda sunny, it rained before class. Came home late from practical and looked at my phone... "been wondering where has my kaling gone in two weeks".

Message? neh, takut. Misscall kaling....

Toot toot toot...

"yes lai? =D omg u wana come study math at my place today? Fiy and shaa coming to study math! Come come come join jax!!" =D"

Hahahaha....

So, I jogged to Dada's house!

Amazingly it just took 15 mins plus? Jogging that far with a back pack isnt as fun. But what to do? have to put my math, my clothes, shampoo, towel! T.T" and then I left my shampoo, facial foam and soap at Dada's! gee, i wonder when I'll get it back? maybe I have to jog to her house to get it next time! haha!

I wanna see if I could run the whole way without walking if I didnt have a big bag bouncing off me. Unsatisfyingly untiring to jog to her house somehow, It really seems far by car! Pass by old tiong hin, new tiong hin, warisan utama, passing riff's place somewhere I dunno, and my mom was surprised I made it around 15 mins.

Why do i always have to forget something when I go to Da's? I guess I'll never learn! Like forgetting that my jacket was there for 2 weeks until I missed and needed it, couldnt find it, forgetting my guitar [a guitar's so big, how could i ever forget something like that? =/], my watch and all those other stuff... crummy little things!

My Xin Jia Po Baby boo Kaling! Glad you asked me!
I feel happy peppies when I do math with my pyens!

oh my, I do need a real camera!

omg! it's been ages since I saw Fiy and Shah cann!??

Eseh! apa nie! touchy! XD never seen Fiy do that to dada before! lol
hahaha! Dada says like guy hugging guy! lol

Pee and Nikon

Shah Shah! Gee I so enjoy her around! xD

Shah shah looks prettier now! more curvy and shapy!
dont go on diet baa!

Hello Pee!
Dada: Jaxx!! you guys look so wrong!
Haha! We kept playing under the table! Lol!

Fiy: No swearing in front of Fiy!

Omg! i so miss him being around because I forgot! I say the wort 'shit' like biasa again because MD people use the word 'shit' and 'fuck' alot! okay 'shit' is normal but thank god I dont swear much! XD

Then We keep going during math in random times when we're all doing work,
"man pee! i miss you" "oh I miss you too jax!"

mins later...
" Jax I miss you! " " Omg Me too!! "

*repeats for several times*

and it's so random we just kept saying we miss eachother at random times!! and then
" haha oh pee i miss you! " " aww i miss you to jax! " " What! as if you actually miss me! you have so many friends in pte! " " What? I miss you ba! " [ i still think it's bs! hahahaha]

Haha omg it's so funny, Dada couldnt take it no more! lol I think that's why she didnt ask me to math in the beinning, " Jax + Fiy = never shut up ". Hahaha! And and ShahShah sat beside me, XD I went home round' eleven plus and heard a few new news from Da for a lil while before I went home. yes, 1 hour talk feels like 15 mins to us. yabbbers... I've never seen Dada look so talk deprived before. Last time she used to be the listener, and this year, it's like I've become the listener! haha XD

I minta-ed something from China!
So yeah! LOL Thanks for the Strap pee!

* remember to keep faith with you Jax, keep hope, be strong, be humble, be everything you could be because I believe in you, and you'll do great things if you do it with your heart wide open, ready for anything, embrace the love around you and feel the things around you. remember, you are the person you want to be if you wish it be.

West Street Rush.

School days have been emo, then fun, then draggy, then fun, then emo + burdened, then confusing, then okay, then fun again! XD so yeah... and somehow got confusing then... happy fun and.. well it goes on...

Blardy heck, school pictures are so... School pictures.
But im gonna post them up larh, since I took them enyways. =/

Like how the picture above shows how gigantic Dave is! OGRE!!!! arg arg!

I sat with Tommy and Mushy.AE and Faiz.Tkd
while I waited for my car. mannn everytime i see tommy, i miss likiLana! X(
They nice! ^^
They let me sit with them while I was hiding from the blueGuy!

Faiz even helped me check if there was a blueGuy in the library that time! so nice ryte?! X)
Then after that we just played with this screw thingy torchlight thingy thing. haha.

Learn math! math! I have math angels now! it amazezness!
I have been spending my Ps in the library being depressed about my suckyness, but now I'm fighting! yay! I so wanna be smart again okay! I so wanna be smart like jax jax smart! X)
Like I keep praying for math math math!! and then Mushy sed he'd teach me some if i had questions, and Kael sed he'd help me with paper one if I had problems, and Dada' asked me to come over for a math study group with PeePee and ShahShah. XD i am so happy that my pyens could help me! *appreciates much*

I spent my day mostly with Nisa on wednesday! ^^
During lunch, Nisa and I, hung around with Aaron and Mushy.

Aaron Lim!
he's like this new guy never before seen in my blog! Had a great talk with him, basically he's really cheeky and funny, interesting to talk to! So yeah! lol
He is not what he seems mannn!! Obviously this is an ugly picture, but *sigh* what to do? my camera has a 3-4 sec. lag and it's so crummy coz everyone moves around and blurs the pictures.

Too bad I aint' got no picture of Mushy though! And Mushy and Mushy.AE are different people! because the Mushy I usually hang out with is Mushy.BE level not AE level.

Funny Picture!
Then Kael Came in! hahaha! mannn! button up!
I like his skin, it so smoots like baby's ass. X(
i use to have baby ass skin on my pess! what happened?
I am so determined to get my baby ass face back!

Nisa and Jimbo!
Jax shouts: "NO TOUCHING IN CLASS"
and jimbo's like all not touching nisa! haha XD

Math Class! Guess which one is Niffy.Wiffy.Only.Niffy! XD

I went to Westreet today! [thursday] with Han and Lena and Arif came along too, gosh, how come I have the urge to call Arif, dikdik... maybe coz Han and lena calls him that and im so biasa with the term already. Met jo and Rida and ... whoops i forgot her name again=/

OKay it might be confusing but I know 3 Arifs and I calll Riffin- Riff and Ariffudin- Riff which now I am tempted to call Dikdik but it doesnt matter since he's going to uk soon, which is the same time Zaffy is leaving! and theres another Arif which I call Arif in TKD and he's so cool!! I look up to him! I heart Tkd Dude and Arif! AAAA! [in a junior to senior way of course, because they are uber cool sparrers! my god, I feel like a fan or a groupie when I say that =/ ] theres also another Arif which han and lena call fubi but I call Awet because It'd be weird if I call him fubi and i never called him Arif in the first place. =) yes yes.

...Westreet...

seriously very rip off can? Please dont buy no Toots there! like you have to choose your food carefully, for one thing, Chicken pasta looks like "macaroni and mayo salad" It tasted like crap, can get the same crap quality from jollibee for cheaper price and at least jollibee actually puts chicken innit!

-_- and dikdik ordered "fish and chips" that costs $8+ not really bad right the price, i mean ok ok lar, then we found out the fish fillet looks like THIN SLICE OF CARDBOARD! like those that should be sold in crummy school canteens for $0.05 cents! and where is the lemon? haha Crudd lar! i can get such a fulfilling "Fish and CHip" dish for $2.50 at that place which i dunno what's it's name... with a slice of LEMON and 2 fish fillets on it crunchy fresh and yummylicious! [ either one or two i forgot]. Seriously that is SUPER RIPP OFF la!

Theres even like "indomee with egg and sausage" for $3 bucks! OMG man! indome packet costs less than a dollar okay! -_^ how much does eggs and sausages cost? *flabbergasted!

Fiy would so stand up and slam the menu on the table and go
" YA ALLAH! ASTaagaaapilulaaalajimmyybong! toot tooot tooot tooot toooooot toot tooot tut tut tooot tooot " !!! no discount ah? where my zelo pesen discount ?!!!

but the Chicken cabonara was good though and the drinks nice too. Like those smoothies and stuff.

I Reached chemistry practical in time after lunch with Han and lena! yay for friends that watch my back and told me that it was important not to miss chemmy or be too late~
Thanx to Niss and Mushy! Hrm, no more Zaffy in Chem... =/

When we came back to school, hannah's bag was on top of the telly! lol
hahahaha! so stupid lar! must be Nabil durang! and she struggled to get it, and i was just at the back watching her while taking this picture.

*snap snap snap*

Got your bag back yet?
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Seriously I was so confused!!
Mushy's going to the library
Nisa's going to her locker and Chem Lab
Han and lena's going to Westreet
*hesitate*
Like OMG OMG OMG! WHO SHOULD I FOLLOW?
lol


OoK jax! DONT LOSE FOCUS!
*snoree*drool*ZZzzZzZ*