Sometimes the internet can be so shitty.
hanyways, i heard somebody i knew got engaged. then it finally dawned on me.
We are all in our twenties now. The time when I was a kid and my sister has to attend shit weddings, or when people got married, and i was there when i was a kid. And now those people who might soon get married, are going to be my second degree friends, or my friend friends.
After 21, im going to be 22. After 22, 25. By then, I'll be an adult. The years go by fast doesnt it, children growing up, transitioning in to adulthood. Thats not as grim as thinking, the old gets older. Soon, one must return to the soil and air, and you might have to attend such an event and witness the transitioning of such.
Pretty soon, everyone would get married, would have children, would have jobs, and eventually see their own children married off. And the cycle goes on like this forever.
Where do i see myself in the future? Would I end up like that? would i become a HEB? (higher evolved being) will i ever get to see the world and be like nicola? sold her house, flying everywhere to see the spiritual side of the world? would i ever be vegetarian? would i achieve something great for my nation or be a little person with an easy life.
Time flies doesnt it. Time flies.
Soon the person you love would be your spouse. Suddenly theres another person sleeping next to you. you would be returning to a home of a different address. your parents would be old, and possibly dependent on you. what would it all mean in the end?
hanyways, i heard somebody i knew got engaged. then it finally dawned on me.
We are all in our twenties now. The time when I was a kid and my sister has to attend shit weddings, or when people got married, and i was there when i was a kid. And now those people who might soon get married, are going to be my second degree friends, or my friend friends.
After 21, im going to be 22. After 22, 25. By then, I'll be an adult. The years go by fast doesnt it, children growing up, transitioning in to adulthood. Thats not as grim as thinking, the old gets older. Soon, one must return to the soil and air, and you might have to attend such an event and witness the transitioning of such.
Pretty soon, everyone would get married, would have children, would have jobs, and eventually see their own children married off. And the cycle goes on like this forever.
Where do i see myself in the future? Would I end up like that? would i become a HEB? (higher evolved being) will i ever get to see the world and be like nicola? sold her house, flying everywhere to see the spiritual side of the world? would i ever be vegetarian? would i achieve something great for my nation or be a little person with an easy life.
Time flies doesnt it. Time flies.
Soon the person you love would be your spouse. Suddenly theres another person sleeping next to you. you would be returning to a home of a different address. your parents would be old, and possibly dependent on you. what would it all mean in the end?
now i understand, how carefree children are. why do we lose that, why do we teach them to lose that precious connection to god and their true spirit...
eventually we too, will die... so what does it mean? all the useless things we cared about, how we presented ourselves, how people thought of us, how everything, in the end it doesnt matter. Whats the stress of life for? stressing about everything or anything when in the end it doesnt matter, life then, should be fun, not a bowl of stress.
at 21 i feel my body aching, soon it might degenerate if nothing is done...
my arteries are hardening, my back is getting worse, my ankle clicks, my heart murmurs, my knee hurts when i walk, my skin speaks for itself. if i continue eating the way i eat, my body would rot away, my life would be like everybody else. I would be just like everybody else, ignorant, victimized by the mind, the society, a blind chess piece without a goal.
i wonder if i was without the wanting of a specific experience i hold in my mind, would i just wish to return to the universe now? soon? and after thinking that, i remember, life, i cant leave yet, theres still things i would like to experience, though the hardships or the illusion of hardships, theres still somethings that my sprit wishes to experience before leaving and joining with the great mother again.
eventually we too, will die... so what does it mean? all the useless things we cared about, how we presented ourselves, how people thought of us, how everything, in the end it doesnt matter. Whats the stress of life for? stressing about everything or anything when in the end it doesnt matter, life then, should be fun, not a bowl of stress.
at 21 i feel my body aching, soon it might degenerate if nothing is done...
my arteries are hardening, my back is getting worse, my ankle clicks, my heart murmurs, my knee hurts when i walk, my skin speaks for itself. if i continue eating the way i eat, my body would rot away, my life would be like everybody else. I would be just like everybody else, ignorant, victimized by the mind, the society, a blind chess piece without a goal.
i wonder if i was without the wanting of a specific experience i hold in my mind, would i just wish to return to the universe now? soon? and after thinking that, i remember, life, i cant leave yet, theres still things i would like to experience, though the hardships or the illusion of hardships, theres still somethings that my sprit wishes to experience before leaving and joining with the great mother again.
1 comments:
What is this I don't even...Lol! Teh internets has always been full of shit, you should know that by now. And growing-up ain't so bad, just roll with it. BTW nice blog. kthxbi
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